MindSoul Bad Days, Good Thoughts

10 February 2019

Definitely not one of my best days…not even one of my good days.. I feel fat, full, moody, cranky, lazy, tired and the worst mother. I have no clue or patience to deal with teens. I feel lonely, old and divorced. I feel useless with no job no friends no boyfriend no partner. My gym membership expires tomorrow and I will not renew it for now. So no gym either. 

No social life. Nothing exciting. annoyed and annoying. 

Now, that I got out the drama…. I am grateful I get to fight with my teenage boys and I get to change and improve myself, my skills. 

I just had a disagreement with Noah regarding his homework and I was humble and wise enough to do a role play and admit in front of them I have no clue how to deal with teens so I let Noah decide if he should go spend the afternoon with his friend even though he didn’t finish all of his homework.

So I may not feel perfect inside nor I may not be the perfect mother on the outside but at least I try, I get educated, I am open and vulnerable and honest. So that is cool. Even if it doesnt feel good. And its enough to try, to make the effort. 

I am reading this Happier book, and its such a relief to read that if you love family it doesn’t mean I have to spend all the time with them. Or if I struggle sometimes it doesnt mean I am unhappy. 

Having M&M’s and wedges and bread with butter. Woke up at 6 am. sleepy. Kids are teasing each other and play and fight. 

This. Is. Motherhood. This. Is. Adulting. This. Is. Real. Life. This. Is . Not. The. Movies. 

(feel it to heal it. venting your emotions will aid to dissapate them. so you can get on with your life)

 

Află idei pe care să le pui in practică ușor astfel încât să fii un pic mai bine decât ieri